So I've been thinking about my working out the last few days~ Zachary has been sleeping horribly and so getting up and having my workout done by 7am has just not been happening. So then that throws my day off because I feel this stress/desire to get it done but also have life to live etc…
It made me think~ is it because I'm following a schedule that I feel like I'm failing if I miss a day or push it back a day? Is it because I feel it's going to keep me from my goals? Is It because I feel like if I miss one day I've failed and am not really serious about my health?
I don't know for sure- but I know it's weird. I am a mom, student, friend, business owner, my man is doing his masters program and that's just part of our life! My workouts enhance me as a person and help me to live my life. They do not define my dedication to my life. Some weeks are just different than others. Don't get me wrong~ I LOVE my workout program, I think if I didn't I wouldn't really care as much if it didn't happen. It's because I'm committed to it that I care.
I think it's all about the balancing game…this week I may be able to follow my schedule perfectly. Next week my man may be traveling and I need to be OK with adjusting it, the next week my boys might just need some extra TLC, the next week my foot may be hurting and I need to take a break…it just goes on and on.
So this is my thought- if I have to skip 2 of my 6 workouts this week it DOES NOT mean that I am not dedicated. It does not mean that I don't take my health seriously. It means that I am aware of maintaining a balance in my life and family and being most present where I need to be. Now this is different then me just being lazy and skipping out because I don't want to. I value my exercise and will stick to my schedule whenever I can, what I'm talking about is having grace for myself when other situations need the energy and time I'd usually give to exercising.
How was that for a mental pep-talk to myself? LOL!