You see, when we left China 18 months ago we knew that we wanted to have more kids. Every practical, deliberative bone in my body cringed as we gave away every baby item we had owned and used. Not only was it stuff we used for Zachary, but I had taken everything we saved from Joshua as well. When we left China we had 10 suitcases, and that was for 4 people. No boxes shipped or anything.
But I also felt like God would give me moments of peace, reminding me that He's the one taking care of us. And He knows the situation, it wasn't that I was just being wasteful or irresponsible.
Then fast forward to this sweet baby boy of ours coming. It started with friends (who yes, I've only known for a short time) giving us a playpen. The EXACT brand and kind that I love and gave away. Then a car seat came. Then clothes, like TONS of super cute clothes for a boy 0-6 months old. Then a breast pump. Then cute blankets. Then a Moby. Just all given to us.
And this was pre-shower.
Then the women in my Bible study and church decided to throw me a baby shower. Seriously, I was like who gets a shower when they already have kids? And when the baby the same sex as the other kids? I know it happens, but just didn't think I would ever have one.
At my shower we enjoyed lunch together, the women prayed for me and this little man. The word 'friendship' came up a few times as we were praying for him. And then they also blessed me with more gifts for the baby. The navy blue ERGObaby Baby Carrier I was wanting SO BAD, diapers, wipes, more cute clothes, etc.
But most of all, they have all blessed me with their friendship and being a part of a community. Being the hands of God to remind me that He is the one that takes care of our family. He doesn't forget the sacrifices we made leaving China (willingly, but still it was a painful/emotional process), and He does not forget the needs of this little man or our budget.
As he takes care of the flowers in the field so can He take care of replacing the the 'stuff' I gave away.
In giving we get to receive. And that is a fun circle we can never quite catch up with God on. He's always a few steps ahead of us, waiting to surprise us with how He will provide.